So for the last few years, I have been really passionate about going to school to be an RN. Well I took the first steps and am first going into the medical assisting field.... It is just a start to great and better things and I am super excited to start and prove to myself and my family and friends that it is possible with 3 kids and a very full schedule!!
After Bryce got RSV, I really took it hard and went through a depression state of mind, where I sat by his bed side in the hospital for almost 2 weeks 24-7 and the RN that was there most of the time was the best, she sat and listened to me vent about the situation and was a friend more than a nurse... She really changed how I felt abot why it happened to our family... I want to do that, make people feel better about themselves and better about life... That going through problems with health is an ok thing and anyone can get through it.
I am very passionate about going back but the routine of it all is alittle scary..... I am going to go to Stevens- Henager for the 20 month program in the evening... I have orientation tonight and I am nervous but excited.... I will be taking evening classes from 6 to 9:50 2 or 3 days aweek starting on Monday... I guess I feel a little guilt of it all as well knowing that Cody will be working full time and have to do the night time routine by himself and the kids wont have kisses from me everynight before bed!! I know it really is the best thing for us and I am bettering myself and the family, but I cant keep from thinking that I might be a little selfish by going back to school now and taking that time for my kids.... With summer here and family going to be down I am going to miss it a little!!
I know I sound like it is forever and I know that it is 20 months, but I have to tell my self that we will get through it and 20 months is right there!! It will be fast and this family will better because of it!! So tell me your opinion are these feelings normal and am I being a little hard on my self about my kids????
Thanks for reading and letting me vent on the computer, i was nice to get it out!!
2 comments:
Thanks for leaving a message on our blog. Brenna really enjoyed getting to know Katelyn this year. She was really sad to miss her birthday party, but we have been crazy-busy this past month.
Congrats on going back to school. I am an RN, and I love it! It is a long process, but one that you won't regret.
Keep in touch!
Angie
Hey, I hope everything is going better! I am sorry for not getting back to you on Saturday, I took a pain pill, and I was out!! I feel bad for missing the fun, and I am sure the Garcia's think we don't like them NOT TRUE! I hope things are also getting better with your decision, let me know if you need help with the kids or anything! Call me for some much need Artic Circle and ice cream!:)
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